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Oct. 9th, 2009

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After almost 10months....

After nearly 10 months I would hope that a boyfriend and girlfriend would be able to talk to each other if one of them has a problem. I thought it was called communication. And not the kind where the girl gets patronized whne he finally opens up.
Why does he do this to me? Just because he isn't allowed to stay at my house. I'm sorry okay. Your parents don't really care what you do and you have much more freedom than me. And I want you to go to sleep before one as well as myself. And I can't help it that I don't always have your libido and I liketo just lie on the couch without you trying to finger me. I like your company and I also like my parents to be happy. Just why do you take it as such a big insult when I say you need to go home?
Please just tell me. I hate being left out of your head.

Jul. 6th, 2009

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posting again

Its nice to finally have some time to myself when i am not wallowing in my own misery.
I wont even begin to talk about the stuff that bugs me. that can be for another post.

but today...
i am happy.

Oct. 7th, 2008

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why do i still think about him?

it just makes me hurt.
and i don't like to hurt.

May. 30th, 2008

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i would like... no,

I want someone to love.

Apr. 14th, 2008

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today was what i consider pretty close to epic.

Of course I started out twenty mintues late to school, found out I bombed my AP enviromental test and that i have a C in my french class, but after a while it turned out good.
Espescially on my walk home with some awesome guys. Package pants (yes thats his nickname i gave him) and Paulo. Of course the whole time they were just making sexual jokes, asking me if i swallow or not (which i do and proud of it), hip thrusting me the whole time, and pretty much just competing with each other to see who could get my attention more. Of course Paulo because he's older and more experienced. Plus he likes getting rough like i do. and he bites :). SOunds like a good combination to me. But the only down side to him is he is majorly into drugs (mainly just smoking and just started doing opium) and that he isnt a very clean individual which is important to me.

Well this was pretty pointless, but i did get attacked by a chicken as well.
So today was a good day.

Apr. 12th, 2008

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is overrated.

Apr. 8th, 2008

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ignorance is definately not bliss

Im quite sure I have discovered my biggest pet peeve.

By definition, ignorance is "The condition of being uneducated, unaware, or uninformed".

Seeing as that is the major topic my language course, I have been paying much more attention to it. Gay marriage has got to be a biggie. Having conversations with anyone over 30, most people disagree. It honestly just pisses me off when someone will say "I'm not homophobic, i just dont want to see gay people.. And i dont like being labeled a homophobic just because I dont agree with you."
Uhm.. excuse me but who gets more 'harassment' a middle- aged white married man that is asked by his daughter what he feels about gay marriage.. OR a 15 year old kid who gets name called everyday, multiple times, harassed, and even beaten up?
Yeah, no comparison.

I have a feeling I may in fact be bisexual, and if i were ever to come out to my parents, they would disown me. It really is just sad that some people cannot see anything from a different perspective..

Mar. 24th, 2008

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SO... apparently my boyfriend isn't actually my boyfriend.

I can't belive I actually liked him and I really wanted to lose my virginity to him. Thhat just ruined my day.

Why can't the good guys ever come to me?
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Writer's Block: Stolen Goods

What is the most valuable thing you've ever had stolen from you?

my heart.

Mar. 18th, 2008

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stop it

He knows who he is.

Stop fucking with me,

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